It is official - after more than 4 years of waiting - Tyrone and I are homeowners again. There was no buyer's remorse yesterday as we signed the paperwork and received the keys to our new house. We believe beyond the shadow of a doubt that God chose this house for us before we ever looked at a map to see how far away Fayetteville, AR would be. It is only a matter of days before we move in and start making it a home.
I really like the movie "Sweet Home Alabama" with Reese Whitherspoon, Patrick Dempsey, and Josh Lucas. I recall a smaller part played by Bob Penny who was "Mr. Buford" the divorce lawyer . He had something so important to share with "Miss Carmichael", but no one would allow him to get near her. They lied to him, threw him out, and man handled him. He was relentless in his effort and finally broke through the resistance just moments before she said her vows to the "wrong guy" to let her know she was still married to her first husband and true love Jake(if I can use a fairy tale term).
I couldn't help but reflect back over the past 4 years in preparation for the closing yesterday a be completely overwhelmed by God's relentlessness in keeping us out of all the wrong houses so we could find the right one. We could have forced the issue or settled so many times which would have caused us to miss out on this house. I remember being so frustrated and angry especially with the last attempt to buy a house here in the spring. I remember praying in those moments too, however, and being completely real with God. He can handle my emotions even if I am out of control. He gave me ultimate peace through it all that we would find the house he had for us.
Just like the little lawyer guy in the movie we can so easily push God away when we are focused on doing what we want to do. What we believe is the right choice or what we think will make us happy. He gets through to us when we finally stop and listen to what he has to say. I am so thankful that Tyrone was level-headed through my emotional roller coaster so that we could hear God's voice and discern his plan for the right roof over our heads.
Tyrone wants to hang a plaque in our house with Joshua 25:15 on it. "As for me and my house, we will serve the Lord." A most popular verse in many households around the world. Interestingly though, I think the first part of the verse belongs on the plaque too. It reads, "But if serving the Lord seems undesirable to you, then choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve, whether the gods your forefathers served beyond the River, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land your are living." A strong reminder of all the things I choose to serve each day that fall short of the masterpiece God is creating for me.
Thursday, October 27, 2011
Monday, October 24, 2011
My Jesus
I had the privilege of mentoring one of my students in my second year as an Adjunct Professor at the University of Evansville. It was something that I had always considered in my mind, but once it actually came to be, it didn't look at all like I pictured it.
This student was nothing like me. She was average height. I am 6'1". She was not an athlete. Being an athlete (and now coach) is part of my identity. She was beyond quiet. I can talk to inanimate objects for extended periods of time if left alone. She would rarely make eye contact with anyone. Her posture spoke volumes - shoulders rounded forward, chin down staring at the floor, slow shuffle gate. I try to make eye contact with everyone and I walk tall with my shoulder back and chin up.
Part way through the semester I noticed she had a black eye, but didn't know whether it was my place to say anything. I wasn't very comfortable approaching students yet especially when it seemed she didn't want to be bothered. One assignment all students are asked to complete is a self image survey. If they score above a certain number, it is an indication they have self image issues. I don't recall her exact score, but she was over the "cut-off" so she was one of a dozen or so students I decided to email. I offered a listening ear and gave them the phone number to campus counseling.
This student was nothing like me. She was average height. I am 6'1". She was not an athlete. Being an athlete (and now coach) is part of my identity. She was beyond quiet. I can talk to inanimate objects for extended periods of time if left alone. She would rarely make eye contact with anyone. Her posture spoke volumes - shoulders rounded forward, chin down staring at the floor, slow shuffle gate. I try to make eye contact with everyone and I walk tall with my shoulder back and chin up.
Part way through the semester I noticed she had a black eye, but didn't know whether it was my place to say anything. I wasn't very comfortable approaching students yet especially when it seemed she didn't want to be bothered. One assignment all students are asked to complete is a self image survey. If they score above a certain number, it is an indication they have self image issues. I don't recall her exact score, but she was over the "cut-off" so she was one of a dozen or so students I decided to email. I offered a listening ear and gave them the phone number to campus counseling.
She approached me the class period after I sent the email and asked if we could talk. She was already plugged in with campus counseling so she just wanted to talk with me. We spent about 10 minutes talking after class and we decided to meet. At that point in my life, I would not classify myself as a hugger, but something compelled me in those moments to give her a hug. I just felt she really needed a hug from someone who cared. Little did I know how terrified she was and the stories she would share about her life in the months to come.
My family had the opportunity to attend her surprise birthday party at the end of her sophomore year. I believe it was the first birthday party she has ever been given - especially the surprise part. I cried tears of joy as she walked in the front door to a big "SURPRISE" and received hug after hug from almost everyone in the room. She greeted each person with open arms, a smile and happy tears. Pretty amazing for someone who feared hugs and couldn't cry just 18 months earlier when she was in my class. Not to say there isn't a lot of healing to do and that scars are evident, but she is really standing on her own two feet with confidence and strength now. It is definitely an answer to my prayers for her.
Romans 8:28 says, "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who[a] have been called according to his purpose." As horrible as the first 18 years were for this young lady, God was working out his plan for her life and countless others who will be impacted by her story. I count it a privilege to watch her grow into the person God has created her to be.
One of my all time favorite songs is "My Jesus" by Todd Agnew. He sings about the kind of people Jesus spent time with - people he invested his life in. People who were different than those he was "expected" to spend his time. The last verse reads,
"Cause my Jesus would never be accepted in my church
The blood and dirt on His feet might stain the carpet
But He reaches for the hurting and despises the proud
I think He'd prefer Beale St. to the stained glass crowd
And I know that He can hear me if I cry out loud
The blood and dirt on His feet might stain the carpet
But He reaches for the hurting and despises the proud
I think He'd prefer Beale St. to the stained glass crowd
And I know that He can hear me if I cry out loud
I wanna be like my Jesus!"
I can't say for sure, but I believe if God had not brought this student into my class two years ago and I had not been obedient to his prompting, she would be a homeless college dropout or have taken her own life. She wasn't like me. She didn't "fit" in my circle, but God used her to teach me how to be more like Jesus and less like the world.
Check out "My Jesus" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fg1bx3oA0eU
Friday, October 21, 2011
Be Careful what You Pray for
I was out walking this morning at a different time than usual. Tyrone left yesterday morning for a conference in Kansas City so I will have been a single parent for about 34 hours by the time he gets home. (That is just long enough to help you stop and appreciate your spouse.) I had today scheduled with nearly back to back to back events so each minute was precious to make sure I made it to each thing on time and prepared. I delivered Jeremiah at school by 7:45 then delivered Maiesha to preschool at 8:15. I knew I had enough time to do a couple things around the house and walk before going back to Maiesha's school to accompany her on the fieldtrip to the fire station. Then we would have enough time to eat lunch and take a short break before heading to Jeremiah's classroom for the fall party. I am the co-homeroom parent and was "in charge" of storytime and the craft. After that we would have a couple hours to relax and get dinner ready before Tyrone arrived home. The final event of the day is to visit our new house.
Now back to the morning walk at an unusual time that I mentioned. I made it out of the house about 9:00 to walk while pushing the stroller and with Buford by my side. I much prefer 6:15a.m. just me and Buford. I had just enought time to walk my normal 30 minute route and make it back to Maiesha's school. I started to pray and one of the first things that came to mind was a praise for how well things were going so far for the day. I specifically remember feeling excited about having this time "to myself" and being thankful for it. Then I asked God to help me remember my joy comes from him not the order I had in my day. My security was not in my smooth sailing, but in Him knowing that he is in complete control even when my order becomes disorder - even when caos strikes and messes up my order.
Not 5 minutes after I finished that part of my prayer with Psalm 139:23-24 the wrench was thrown into my works. In those verses I honed in on "test me and know my anxious thoughts". I thought a little on the test me part and how I am not sure I really wanted God to test me. Well, the wrench was a call from my darling husband to task me with printing (no printer at home right now) and filling out a form that had to be nortorized and sent overnight mail TODAY. I just started to laugh as I listened to him explain.
I guess God decided to test me as I had prayed a few minutes earlier. Was my faith, my joy in Him or in my skills to organize my day? To make a long story short I shortened my walk, made it to the field trip, took care of the paperwork/mailing, had a great time at Jeremiah's fall party and have a genuine smile on my face after it is all done. It was a great day! Psalm 139:23-24 ends with "See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting." I know God was leading me through this day.
I know that praying scripture back to God is a powerful thing, but he gave me a practical example today.
Now back to the morning walk at an unusual time that I mentioned. I made it out of the house about 9:00 to walk while pushing the stroller and with Buford by my side. I much prefer 6:15a.m. just me and Buford. I had just enought time to walk my normal 30 minute route and make it back to Maiesha's school. I started to pray and one of the first things that came to mind was a praise for how well things were going so far for the day. I specifically remember feeling excited about having this time "to myself" and being thankful for it. Then I asked God to help me remember my joy comes from him not the order I had in my day. My security was not in my smooth sailing, but in Him knowing that he is in complete control even when my order becomes disorder - even when caos strikes and messes up my order.
Not 5 minutes after I finished that part of my prayer with Psalm 139:23-24 the wrench was thrown into my works. In those verses I honed in on "test me and know my anxious thoughts". I thought a little on the test me part and how I am not sure I really wanted God to test me. Well, the wrench was a call from my darling husband to task me with printing (no printer at home right now) and filling out a form that had to be nortorized and sent overnight mail TODAY. I just started to laugh as I listened to him explain.
I guess God decided to test me as I had prayed a few minutes earlier. Was my faith, my joy in Him or in my skills to organize my day? To make a long story short I shortened my walk, made it to the field trip, took care of the paperwork/mailing, had a great time at Jeremiah's fall party and have a genuine smile on my face after it is all done. It was a great day! Psalm 139:23-24 ends with "See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting." I know God was leading me through this day.
I know that praying scripture back to God is a powerful thing, but he gave me a practical example today.
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
Where will you go when you die?
I watched the movie "My Sister's Keeper" this afternoon. I really enjoyed it - great if you need a good cry. LOL What was more sad than watching a child die from cancer was the conversation she and her younger sister had about "where she was going" after she died. She didn't know, but she hoped she would see her boyfriend who had already died from cancer. The expression on her face lead you to believe she thought it would be better than what she was going through on earth.
Whenever I watch a movie like that I first think about having to say good-bye to one of my children. I don't want to imagine that and my heart goes out to all who have walked that path. As hard as that would be a much worse thought is what it would be like to say good-bye and have no hope about his or her destination.
I am so thankful that both Jeremiah and Maiesha have prayed for salvation and "ask Jesus into their hearts" as we say. On Martin Luther King Jr Day in 2009 Jeremiah prayed while we were eating lunch. It was so sweet to have the opportunity to lead him through the most important prayer he will ever pray. A great weight was lifted from my shoulders that day as I thought about his eternal place in heaven with Jesus.
Another burden was lifted on May 14, 2011 when Maiesha prayed to ask Jesus to be her savior. Jeremiah helped lead Maiesha into her decision. We were reading the Bible story about Jesus ascending into heaven.
I continue to pray for Lydia's salvation in God's perfect time as I have prayed for all my children from the beginning of each pregnancy. It is so wonderful to see then growing in faith and to pray for the Holy Spirit to direct their path each day. God is already using them in mighty ways.
I know when Lydia asks her big brother or big sister where they are going when they die they can say with confidence and certainty it is better than anything they could possibly imagine. They go to live forever with Jesus in heaven.
"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life." John 3:16
Whenever I watch a movie like that I first think about having to say good-bye to one of my children. I don't want to imagine that and my heart goes out to all who have walked that path. As hard as that would be a much worse thought is what it would be like to say good-bye and have no hope about his or her destination.
I am so thankful that both Jeremiah and Maiesha have prayed for salvation and "ask Jesus into their hearts" as we say. On Martin Luther King Jr Day in 2009 Jeremiah prayed while we were eating lunch. It was so sweet to have the opportunity to lead him through the most important prayer he will ever pray. A great weight was lifted from my shoulders that day as I thought about his eternal place in heaven with Jesus.
Another burden was lifted on May 14, 2011 when Maiesha prayed to ask Jesus to be her savior. Jeremiah helped lead Maiesha into her decision. We were reading the Bible story about Jesus ascending into heaven.
I continue to pray for Lydia's salvation in God's perfect time as I have prayed for all my children from the beginning of each pregnancy. It is so wonderful to see then growing in faith and to pray for the Holy Spirit to direct their path each day. God is already using them in mighty ways.
I know when Lydia asks her big brother or big sister where they are going when they die they can say with confidence and certainty it is better than anything they could possibly imagine. They go to live forever with Jesus in heaven.
"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life." John 3:16
Monday, October 17, 2011
Victory over Self
We watched the movie "Soul Surfer" last Friday night. What an amazing story! It was very inspiring to see a young girl and her family overcome outrageous circumstances. I highly recommend it. Our world is full of stories about people who have overcome tragedy and heartache. We are quick to applaud them, shed a few tears of compassion and then wipe our brow and think "I sure am glad that didn't happen to me."
I realize I have obstacles to overcome each day - none so profound as the loss of my arm by shark attack. The greatest obstacle I must overcome is myself. I want things my way, in my time. I want my children to obey, sleep all night, and eat dinner without complaining about the vegetables. I want my husband to do things on my terms even though he is the head of our home, put his stuff away, and meet all my needs (never mind if I am meeting his or not). In short I want to control everything! As soon as I get so frustrated I can't see straight, I stop fussing long enough to realize I can only control my own attitude, actions and response. I surrender, yet again, control to God and trust his faithfulness and perfect timing. Until I grab hold again and have to do it all over again.
We were studying Revelations last spring at our church in Evansville. In chapter 2:1-7 Jesus is speaking to the Church in Ephesus telling them "You have forsaken your first love." They need to get back to the basics by repenting and investing the necessary time to rekindle their love relationship with God. Verse 7 says, "...To him who overcomes, I will give the right to eat from the tree of life, which is in the paradise of God. "
"Overcoming is not victory over others. It is victory over ourselves. It requires intent, effort, and perseverance. (from sermon notes)" I have to overcome my own desires to control my life. I must overcome my attitude toward my circumstances. I must overcome my sinful flesh and allow the Holy Spirit to to lead. So I am praying and meditating on several key verses to give me victory.
Psalm 46:10 "Be still, and know that I am God."
Psalm 139:23-24 "Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting."
Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight."
Amen
I realize I have obstacles to overcome each day - none so profound as the loss of my arm by shark attack. The greatest obstacle I must overcome is myself. I want things my way, in my time. I want my children to obey, sleep all night, and eat dinner without complaining about the vegetables. I want my husband to do things on my terms even though he is the head of our home, put his stuff away, and meet all my needs (never mind if I am meeting his or not). In short I want to control everything! As soon as I get so frustrated I can't see straight, I stop fussing long enough to realize I can only control my own attitude, actions and response. I surrender, yet again, control to God and trust his faithfulness and perfect timing. Until I grab hold again and have to do it all over again.
We were studying Revelations last spring at our church in Evansville. In chapter 2:1-7 Jesus is speaking to the Church in Ephesus telling them "You have forsaken your first love." They need to get back to the basics by repenting and investing the necessary time to rekindle their love relationship with God. Verse 7 says, "...To him who overcomes, I will give the right to eat from the tree of life, which is in the paradise of God. "
"Overcoming is not victory over others. It is victory over ourselves. It requires intent, effort, and perseverance. (from sermon notes)" I have to overcome my own desires to control my life. I must overcome my attitude toward my circumstances. I must overcome my sinful flesh and allow the Holy Spirit to to lead. So I am praying and meditating on several key verses to give me victory.
Psalm 46:10 "Be still, and know that I am God."
Psalm 139:23-24 "Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting."
Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight."
Amen
Friday, October 14, 2011
A sequence of events
Have you ever taken a moment to think back over the sequence of events that lead you to the place you are at that moment. I have started to do this more often and it is amazing how the most insignificant (or so it seems) decisions have a profound impact on life.
I am an early morning walker - just Buford and me. It is my prayer time and the only time of day I know my family does not need me. I really value this time. Since we moved to Fayetteville I walk around campus across the street from our house. It became a regular occurrance that I walked past the same woman as I passed behind the track & field stadium. We started to say good morning after a couple passings. It was a little comical to us that we were on the same schedule.
One Sunday morning in September we were visiting Fellowship Bible Church in Rogers (30 min north) and that same woman I walked by in the mornings was standing next to us checking her son into his class while we checked Jeremiah into his. She recognized me first, said hello and we confirmed that we knew one another. She was very kind and helpful in showing us "the ropes" since it was her home chuch. We exchanged phone numbers after the service and she asked if she could pass my number along to some friends in Fayetteville.
The next Friday I received a phone call from another woman who received my number from my "walking friend". She invited our family to her church and also invited me to a Ladies' Tea Party the next day at the church. I went and we have been attending that church since then for about a month.
All of this from my decision to faithfully walk in the mornings. I had been praying that God would direct us to the church he had for us. He knew about my morning walks. He knew about our visits to a church 30 minutes out of town (which btw...an elder at our church in Evansville told us about and we met him in a class we decided to take for 6 weeks after Lydia was born.)
See what I mean...everything we do, every decision we make has a domino effect in our lives. So how incredibly important is it that we stay tuned in to God's will and purpose for our lives!!!!
I am an early morning walker - just Buford and me. It is my prayer time and the only time of day I know my family does not need me. I really value this time. Since we moved to Fayetteville I walk around campus across the street from our house. It became a regular occurrance that I walked past the same woman as I passed behind the track & field stadium. We started to say good morning after a couple passings. It was a little comical to us that we were on the same schedule.
One Sunday morning in September we were visiting Fellowship Bible Church in Rogers (30 min north) and that same woman I walked by in the mornings was standing next to us checking her son into his class while we checked Jeremiah into his. She recognized me first, said hello and we confirmed that we knew one another. She was very kind and helpful in showing us "the ropes" since it was her home chuch. We exchanged phone numbers after the service and she asked if she could pass my number along to some friends in Fayetteville.
The next Friday I received a phone call from another woman who received my number from my "walking friend". She invited our family to her church and also invited me to a Ladies' Tea Party the next day at the church. I went and we have been attending that church since then for about a month.
All of this from my decision to faithfully walk in the mornings. I had been praying that God would direct us to the church he had for us. He knew about my morning walks. He knew about our visits to a church 30 minutes out of town (which btw...an elder at our church in Evansville told us about and we met him in a class we decided to take for 6 weeks after Lydia was born.)
See what I mean...everything we do, every decision we make has a domino effect in our lives. So how incredibly important is it that we stay tuned in to God's will and purpose for our lives!!!!
Thursday, October 13, 2011
Basketball is Life! The rest is just details.
As far back as 6th grade I remember basketball being one of the most important things in my life. I had aspirations of playing college basketball even then and there was something in me that knew I would achieve that goal. Late in high school I purchased the shirt "Basketball is Life; The rest is just details." I wore it proudly and that was a huge part of my identity.
Well, I arrive at the University of South Carolina in August 1996 having achieved my goal of playing collegiate basketball. I was on top of the world. By the end of my freshman year I was no longer on the basketball team, but I had switched sports and was a member of the track & field team. So much for basketball being my life.
John 14:6 Jesus says, "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me." That sure gives me a totally different perspective on how I should have pursued my athletic career. I am thankful that God has used me as a friend and coach to help young athletes hear that their sport is not life. I am thinking about one young lady in particular who rejected the idea that basketball is life to the point that she didn't necessarily try her best and give all she had to being the best player she could be. I shared with her a different perspective that God was working out in me at the time...
I am created in the image of God for the sole purpose of reflecting His glory all the days of my life. He has given me gifts and talents, strength and weaknesses so that I can be light and salt in this dark world. So no, basketball or anything else for that matter, is not life, but whatever I do am doing I should do it wholeheartedly and obediently so the name of God will be glorified and souls will be won to His kingdom.
As we watched football practice today at Razorback Stadium and followed the kids through the autograph line, I think what an amazing platform athletes have to reach the world for Jesus. What an opportunity I have to connect with student-athletes as a former athlete and coach to show then the truth that was revealed to me.
So they can see that Jesus is life! The rest of just details.
Well, I arrive at the University of South Carolina in August 1996 having achieved my goal of playing collegiate basketball. I was on top of the world. By the end of my freshman year I was no longer on the basketball team, but I had switched sports and was a member of the track & field team. So much for basketball being my life.
John 14:6 Jesus says, "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me." That sure gives me a totally different perspective on how I should have pursued my athletic career. I am thankful that God has used me as a friend and coach to help young athletes hear that their sport is not life. I am thinking about one young lady in particular who rejected the idea that basketball is life to the point that she didn't necessarily try her best and give all she had to being the best player she could be. I shared with her a different perspective that God was working out in me at the time...
I am created in the image of God for the sole purpose of reflecting His glory all the days of my life. He has given me gifts and talents, strength and weaknesses so that I can be light and salt in this dark world. So no, basketball or anything else for that matter, is not life, but whatever I do am doing I should do it wholeheartedly and obediently so the name of God will be glorified and souls will be won to His kingdom.
As we watched football practice today at Razorback Stadium and followed the kids through the autograph line, I think what an amazing platform athletes have to reach the world for Jesus. What an opportunity I have to connect with student-athletes as a former athlete and coach to show then the truth that was revealed to me.
So they can see that Jesus is life! The rest of just details.
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
Do not conform
As often happens at our house, Tyrone and I were having a discussion of a political nature this morning. We are very similar in our political views, but have some fairly minor differences in how we see things should work. One things we strongly agree on is that as Christians - people who desire to look more and more like Jesus in the way we live - we should never allow political views to shape our Biblical ideas, but rather use the Bible to shape our view of this world. John 17:17 says, "...your word is truth." Why would I form my opinions on anything else.
Well, back to the conversation we were having this morning. Tyrone and I do disagree on how much media we should take in to "keep up" on the happenings in our country and the world. He likes to be informed via news programs and internet articles. I prefer to remain mostly uninformed because most of what I see and hear brings fear and frustration about the world we live in and I know those things are not from God.
Romans 12:1-2 says, "Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God - this is your spiritual act of worship. Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is - his good, pleasing and perfect will."
So what is the pattern of this world that I get caught up in? How do I renew my mind? Oh to be able to test and approve what God's will is for my life. It is no mystery! I find the answers I seek by reading God's Word. I read the 'final instructions' in 1 Thessalonians 5:12-17 talking about how to treat people and wraps up with 16-17 saying, "16 Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus."
There it is. I don't have to fear or get frustrated by the world, by other Christians, by politics. I just focus my time and energy toward prayer and God's Word and my direction will be clear. It can be just that simple.
Well, back to the conversation we were having this morning. Tyrone and I do disagree on how much media we should take in to "keep up" on the happenings in our country and the world. He likes to be informed via news programs and internet articles. I prefer to remain mostly uninformed because most of what I see and hear brings fear and frustration about the world we live in and I know those things are not from God.
Romans 12:1-2 says, "Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God - this is your spiritual act of worship. Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is - his good, pleasing and perfect will."
So what is the pattern of this world that I get caught up in? How do I renew my mind? Oh to be able to test and approve what God's will is for my life. It is no mystery! I find the answers I seek by reading God's Word. I read the 'final instructions' in 1 Thessalonians 5:12-17 talking about how to treat people and wraps up with 16-17 saying, "16 Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus."
There it is. I don't have to fear or get frustrated by the world, by other Christians, by politics. I just focus my time and energy toward prayer and God's Word and my direction will be clear. It can be just that simple.
Monday, October 10, 2011
I will lie down and sleep in peace...
I have been struggling to find a block of time for organized Bible study/quiet time. So today I went to pick up Maiesha early from preschool so I had 20 uninterrupted minutes in the pick up line to read. I kept the radio on so Lydia would stay asleep in her carseat. I started reading the Psalms and had to stop when I reached chapter 4. I read it a couple times and even wrote it down. It was exactly what I needed today.
1 Answer me when I call to you,
my righteous God.
Give me relief from my distress;
have mercy on me and hear my prayer.
2 How long will you people turn my glory into shame?
How long will you love delusions and seek false gods[b]?[c]
3 Know that the LORD has set apart his faithful servant for himself;
the LORD hears when I call to him.
4 Tremble and[d] do not sin;
when you are on your beds,
search your hearts and be silent.
5 Offer the sacrifices of the righteous
and trust in the LORD.
6 Many, LORD, are asking, “Who will bring us prosperity?”
Let the light of your face shine on us.
7 Fill my heart with joy
when their grain and new wine abound.
8 In peace I will lie down and sleep,
for you alone, LORD,
make me dwell in safety.
1 Answer me when I call to you,
my righteous God.
Give me relief from my distress;
have mercy on me and hear my prayer.
2 How long will you people turn my glory into shame?
How long will you love delusions and seek false gods[b]?[c]
3 Know that the LORD has set apart his faithful servant for himself;
the LORD hears when I call to him.
4 Tremble and[d] do not sin;
when you are on your beds,
search your hearts and be silent.
5 Offer the sacrifices of the righteous
and trust in the LORD.
6 Many, LORD, are asking, “Who will bring us prosperity?”
Let the light of your face shine on us.
7 Fill my heart with joy
when their grain and new wine abound.
8 In peace I will lie down and sleep,
for you alone, LORD,
make me dwell in safety.
Sunday, October 9, 2011
Great Expectations
Going into my final year of track and field at the University of South Carolina I had big expectations for my performance. I worked harder that summer than I ever had before. I was driven and focused. I want to experience success in the throwing circle. Shot put was my best event. The indoor season started off far below my expectations, but it turned around and going into the SEC meet I was the #1 seed and ranked in the top 10 nationally. I had an expectation that I was going to be the SEC champion. When I walked out of the weight room the day before we got on the bus for the University of Kentucky, I said to one of the strength coaches, "The next time you see me I will be an SEC champion." It was not arrogance, but extreme confidence in my preparation.
At the hotel our team was gathered for dinner and each senior was given the opportunity to address the team. I spoke passionately about my expectation to win. I encouraged each athlete to expect greatness from his/her performance at the meet. Whether you are the #1 seed or the last expect great things from yourself and your teammates. My emotions grabbed me as I spoke and tears filled my eyes. I new what was possible and believed each person could achieve great things if they just expected it to happen.
The pastor spoke of expectations this morning - expectations in our relationship and interaction with Jesus Christ. Do I read my Bible with an expectation that God's Word is alive and powerful and relevant to my cirrcumstances? Do I pray with an expectation that God can handle whatever I am dealing with? Do I live with an expectation that he is holding me tight in HIS GRIP and will NOT let go?
In 1 John 3:1 it says, "How great is the love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God!" Do I live expecting this lavish love as God promises to those who have accepted the free gift of salvation? Sadly, I admit, I often live impatiently focused on how I can deal with life's stuff instead of expecting the greatness of God to give me peace and rest.
I went on to win the shot put and become an SEC champion my senior year. More importantly I learned a lesson on expectations and giving myself completely to the pursute of something worthwhile. Now I apply that to life as a wife, a mom, a friend, and as a child of God. I can expect to receive the greatness God has for me if I wholeheartedly seek HIS WILL for my life and allow him to complete his masterpiece.
At the hotel our team was gathered for dinner and each senior was given the opportunity to address the team. I spoke passionately about my expectation to win. I encouraged each athlete to expect greatness from his/her performance at the meet. Whether you are the #1 seed or the last expect great things from yourself and your teammates. My emotions grabbed me as I spoke and tears filled my eyes. I new what was possible and believed each person could achieve great things if they just expected it to happen.
The pastor spoke of expectations this morning - expectations in our relationship and interaction with Jesus Christ. Do I read my Bible with an expectation that God's Word is alive and powerful and relevant to my cirrcumstances? Do I pray with an expectation that God can handle whatever I am dealing with? Do I live with an expectation that he is holding me tight in HIS GRIP and will NOT let go?
In 1 John 3:1 it says, "How great is the love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God!" Do I live expecting this lavish love as God promises to those who have accepted the free gift of salvation? Sadly, I admit, I often live impatiently focused on how I can deal with life's stuff instead of expecting the greatness of God to give me peace and rest.
I went on to win the shot put and become an SEC champion my senior year. More importantly I learned a lesson on expectations and giving myself completely to the pursute of something worthwhile. Now I apply that to life as a wife, a mom, a friend, and as a child of God. I can expect to receive the greatness God has for me if I wholeheartedly seek HIS WILL for my life and allow him to complete his masterpiece.
Saturday, October 8, 2011
A day to be thankful for.
We have been living across the street from the UA campus since we moved to Fayetteville. Since the university owns the property, they use it for game day parking. Several hours before the game begins our yard - front and back - fills up with vehicle. Today we got outside before that to enjoy the weather. Tyrone took Maiesha's training wheels off and she did great. She will be officially on 2 wheels in no time. Then we packed everyone up to walk around campus to check out the tailgating scene.
Jeremiah and Maiesha wore their Razorback t-shirts and "hog tatoos". We had a family picture taken. The kids received a round of applause after dancing to the music of a live band in The Gardens. A random guy walked up to us and asked us to join their tailgate. We spent the rest of the afternoon hanging out in their tent, eating great food, watching football while the kids played with other kids in the area.
It was such a fun day. I am so thankful that we have the opportunity to do new things as a family. God provided a free meal, and beautiful day, and kind people to share it with. Take time to appreciate the little things!
Jeremiah and Maiesha wore their Razorback t-shirts and "hog tatoos". We had a family picture taken. The kids received a round of applause after dancing to the music of a live band in The Gardens. A random guy walked up to us and asked us to join their tailgate. We spent the rest of the afternoon hanging out in their tent, eating great food, watching football while the kids played with other kids in the area.
It was such a fun day. I am so thankful that we have the opportunity to do new things as a family. God provided a free meal, and beautiful day, and kind people to share it with. Take time to appreciate the little things!
Friday, October 7, 2011
Practice to Win
I really miss my job as Coach Washington some days. Over the past 9 years I have been a high school track coach, a JV girl's basketball coach, a personal trainer, and most recently the Strength and Conditioning Coach for the University of Evansville Women's basketball team. I love coaching! It is one of the most frustrating and rewarding job I know. Working with young people from all walks of life provides such a great opportunity to invest in their future and the future of our world.
One day a couple years ago, Jeremiah, Maiesha and I were walking over to watch the UE volleyball team practice. (Tyrone and I were advisors for the team.) Along the way, Jeremiah asked, "Mom, are they practicing to win?" I don't recall my response word for word, but I remember saying something like I hope so and then thinking what a profound question for a 4 year old boy to ask.
There are different dimensions to winning. The person or team with the best score at the end of a contest. Recording a personal best effort in your chosen activity or sport. Maybe it is never giving up even if you will finish in last place. It could be offering heartfelt congratulations to someone who has just beaten you. Doing your best even after you were denied a promotion. Perhaps it is walking in one direction when the crowd is going the other direction.
So do I practice to win each day? Do I extend patience and grace to my family? Am I willing to set aside status, popularity, or public preception for the sake of a lost soul who needs the saving grace of Jesus Christ just like me? Do I devote myself to doing whatever it is God has called me to do at the season of life? Am I willing to be uncomfortable in some way if it means helping my team get better? Am I willing to lay down my life for a friend?
Colossians 3:23-24 says, "Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters, 24 since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving. "
What am I practice for?
One day a couple years ago, Jeremiah, Maiesha and I were walking over to watch the UE volleyball team practice. (Tyrone and I were advisors for the team.) Along the way, Jeremiah asked, "Mom, are they practicing to win?" I don't recall my response word for word, but I remember saying something like I hope so and then thinking what a profound question for a 4 year old boy to ask.
There are different dimensions to winning. The person or team with the best score at the end of a contest. Recording a personal best effort in your chosen activity or sport. Maybe it is never giving up even if you will finish in last place. It could be offering heartfelt congratulations to someone who has just beaten you. Doing your best even after you were denied a promotion. Perhaps it is walking in one direction when the crowd is going the other direction.
So do I practice to win each day? Do I extend patience and grace to my family? Am I willing to set aside status, popularity, or public preception for the sake of a lost soul who needs the saving grace of Jesus Christ just like me? Do I devote myself to doing whatever it is God has called me to do at the season of life? Am I willing to be uncomfortable in some way if it means helping my team get better? Am I willing to lay down my life for a friend?
Colossians 3:23-24 says, "Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters, 24 since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving. "
What am I practice for?
Thursday, October 6, 2011
The Beauty of His Creation
The weather has been absolutely fabulous the past few weeks so the kids and I took the opportunity to enjoy it this afternoon in our own front yard. Jeremiah picked up a leaf and asked if we could make a leaf rub (he is very into any kind of art right now). I said yes and suggested we go for a walk to collect some different kinds of leaves. I thought it would be a great project we could frame and hang in the new house. I get some good ideas from watching HGTV and now the DIY network.
Isn't it amazing how many colors, shapes and textures we can find in a few leaves. I had to marvel at God's attention to detail in something that we take for granted most days. Jeremiah learned about carbon dioxide and photosynthesis at school this week and how CO2 is "bad". Tyrone, being the scientist that he is, explained how awesome it is that God created plants since they need the carbon dioxide to survive and put off oxygen as a waste product. The very thing we need to survive. Incredible! God is so practical sometimes.
"God saw all that He had made and it was very good." Genesis 1:31 Thank you Lord for your provision build right into creation from the beginning.
Isn't it amazing how many colors, shapes and textures we can find in a few leaves. I had to marvel at God's attention to detail in something that we take for granted most days. Jeremiah learned about carbon dioxide and photosynthesis at school this week and how CO2 is "bad". Tyrone, being the scientist that he is, explained how awesome it is that God created plants since they need the carbon dioxide to survive and put off oxygen as a waste product. The very thing we need to survive. Incredible! God is so practical sometimes.
"God saw all that He had made and it was very good." Genesis 1:31 Thank you Lord for your provision build right into creation from the beginning.
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
Now I see You
When we are getting ready to purchase a new vehicle we like to look for styles and colors that we don't see a lot of. Strange enough once you buy that unique one or just spend time thinking about it, you begin to see that style and color all over the road. It is everywhere - you see them even when your not looking.
I have begun to realize, especially since starting this bog, that seeing God is the same way. When we are not looking for him, he is nowhere to be found. As soon as we start to intentionally search for his presents, he is everywhere, in everything. In fact, he might become all that we see. Hmmmm...
Jeremiah 29:13 says, "You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart." So when my heart just isn't in it or I stop looking for God's presence I shouldn't be surprise when I feel far from Him. The thing is He never moved - I did - so I can run back to his open arms waiting to squeeze me tight again.
I am so thankful that this week has been full of these moments and what a tremendous peace I have in the mist of the storm as I rest in the grip of grace (btw..."In the Grip of Grace" is a great Max Lucado book).
I have begun to realize, especially since starting this bog, that seeing God is the same way. When we are not looking for him, he is nowhere to be found. As soon as we start to intentionally search for his presents, he is everywhere, in everything. In fact, he might become all that we see. Hmmmm...
Jeremiah 29:13 says, "You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart." So when my heart just isn't in it or I stop looking for God's presence I shouldn't be surprise when I feel far from Him. The thing is He never moved - I did - so I can run back to his open arms waiting to squeeze me tight again.
I am so thankful that this week has been full of these moments and what a tremendous peace I have in the mist of the storm as I rest in the grip of grace (btw..."In the Grip of Grace" is a great Max Lucado book).
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
The Sun and the Moon
I was out walking with Maiesha, Lydia and our dog Buford tonight when Maiesha said she could see a star. It was light enough that only a couple were visible, but the half moon was shining bright. I started to explain to her how the moon reflects the sun's light so we can see in the dark of night. I realized what a great analogy that could be for us and Jesus.
Jesus is the sun. He is always shining! Thank goodness. We are the moon. We are created to reflect the Son's light in the darkness of this world. Sometimes we are turned in such a way that we only appear as 3-quarters, half, or just a sliver. On some occassions we have a total lunar eclipse and His light cannot be seen in us at all.
John 8:12 says, "When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said, "I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life."
I pray that I reflect His light in this dark world each day.
Jesus is the sun. He is always shining! Thank goodness. We are the moon. We are created to reflect the Son's light in the darkness of this world. Sometimes we are turned in such a way that we only appear as 3-quarters, half, or just a sliver. On some occassions we have a total lunar eclipse and His light cannot be seen in us at all.
John 8:12 says, "When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said, "I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life."
I pray that I reflect His light in this dark world each day.
Monday, October 3, 2011
He Breathed Life into Me
I don't think I respond correctly to the majesty of God most days. Sure I have moments and time where I marvel at what he has created. At what he has done in my life. That's easy to do with a new baby as she reaches her "firsts". Sadly, more times I worry about my children, consider what others think, stew about our finances, or spend time trying to smooth this wrinkle on my forehead. On my worst days, I respond out of angry not love, eat junk food because I "earned it", or I ignore the needs of my husband. I could go on and on beating myself up, but that is what satan wants me to do so I lose sight of my Savior.
I am constantly telling the kids, the Bible says you are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14). When Jeremiah asked about the color of his skin. When Maiesha says she wants straight hair instead of curly. When they make bad choices or disobey. Do I stop and listen to God saying that to me and respond in a way that brings him glory?
While teaching children's church back at CFC I learned something profound that revolutionized the way I see my relationship with God. As we worked through the creation account, we saw that God spoke the world into being. The day and the night. The sun, moon and stars. The land and sea. The plants and animals. When we got to the creation of Man it says in Genesis 1:27, " So God created mankind in his own image, in the image of God he created them; male and female he created them." Then in Genesis 2:7 it says, "Then the LORD God formed a man from the dust of the ground and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life, and the man became a living being."
So I am created in the image of the Living God, and for me to have life he breathed His own breath into me. Now that is a reason to move over and let Him lead. If I think about God as my pro dance partner on Dancing with the Stars, I must keep my eyes on him so I stay on the beat. I must melt into his arms as we spin and turn around the dance floor so we are one with each step. I must listen for his instruction so I know when and where to step. He is the pro and I am the student.
So venture over to YouTube.com as I am doing right now and search for one of my favorite old hymn, "How Great Thou Art" and worship the creator who breathed life into Man so he could have a relationship with each of us through the shed blood of Jesus Christ.
I am constantly telling the kids, the Bible says you are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14). When Jeremiah asked about the color of his skin. When Maiesha says she wants straight hair instead of curly. When they make bad choices or disobey. Do I stop and listen to God saying that to me and respond in a way that brings him glory?
While teaching children's church back at CFC I learned something profound that revolutionized the way I see my relationship with God. As we worked through the creation account, we saw that God spoke the world into being. The day and the night. The sun, moon and stars. The land and sea. The plants and animals. When we got to the creation of Man it says in Genesis 1:27, " So God created mankind in his own image, in the image of God he created them; male and female he created them." Then in Genesis 2:7 it says, "Then the LORD God formed a man from the dust of the ground and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life, and the man became a living being."
So I am created in the image of the Living God, and for me to have life he breathed His own breath into me. Now that is a reason to move over and let Him lead. If I think about God as my pro dance partner on Dancing with the Stars, I must keep my eyes on him so I stay on the beat. I must melt into his arms as we spin and turn around the dance floor so we are one with each step. I must listen for his instruction so I know when and where to step. He is the pro and I am the student.
So venture over to YouTube.com as I am doing right now and search for one of my favorite old hymn, "How Great Thou Art" and worship the creator who breathed life into Man so he could have a relationship with each of us through the shed blood of Jesus Christ.
Sunday, October 2, 2011
He must become greater;...
...I must become less. John 3:30 This verse was part of the sermon this morning. How do I become more of Jesus and less of myself in my marriage?
This week was a difficult one in our house. I assume every married couple has those. It is really easy to get focused on all the flaws and shortcomings of your spouse and see how every problem is some how his fault. But if Jesus is becoming greater and I less this perspective seems very worldly and just plain wrong. We spend too much time in this life trying to figure out "whose fault it is?" or "who is to blame?"
This morning I was reminded I must take responsibility for my daily walk and not point the finger elsewhere. If I am becoming more of Jesus and less of me, I focus on how I can be the wife God created me to be regardless if Tyrone puts his socks in the dirty clothes or leaves them on the living room floor. I focus on being the woman described in Proverbs 31:10-31.
"A wife of noble character who can find? She is worth far more than rubies.
Her husband has full confidence in her and lacks nothing of value.
12 She brings him good, not harm, all the days of her life.
...
25 She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come.
26 She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
27 She watches over the affairs of her household and does not eat the bread of idleness.
28 Her children arise and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her:
...
So back to the how do I put this into practice? I daily pray Psalm 25:4-5, "4 Show me your ways, LORD, teach me your paths. 5 Guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior,
and my hope is in you all day long. " Then I have to keep my eyes on Him, my mind on Him.
This week was a difficult one in our house. I assume every married couple has those. It is really easy to get focused on all the flaws and shortcomings of your spouse and see how every problem is some how his fault. But if Jesus is becoming greater and I less this perspective seems very worldly and just plain wrong. We spend too much time in this life trying to figure out "whose fault it is?" or "who is to blame?"
This morning I was reminded I must take responsibility for my daily walk and not point the finger elsewhere. If I am becoming more of Jesus and less of me, I focus on how I can be the wife God created me to be regardless if Tyrone puts his socks in the dirty clothes or leaves them on the living room floor. I focus on being the woman described in Proverbs 31:10-31.
"A wife of noble character who can find? She is worth far more than rubies.
Her husband has full confidence in her and lacks nothing of value.
12 She brings him good, not harm, all the days of her life.
...
25 She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come.
26 She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
27 She watches over the affairs of her household and does not eat the bread of idleness.
28 Her children arise and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her:
...
So back to the how do I put this into practice? I daily pray Psalm 25:4-5, "4 Show me your ways, LORD, teach me your paths. 5 Guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior,
and my hope is in you all day long. " Then I have to keep my eyes on Him, my mind on Him.
Saturday, October 1, 2011
A Woman of Simplicity
I am the type of person who enjoys having a lot of different things going on. It's like putting a puzzle together - how can I get each piece fit into its proper place. The trouble is that becomes a high stress way of living and I can't get the day to day things done not to mention my job as wife and mom gets neglected. So the idea of moving to Fayetteville and having no job outside our home gave me a sense of relief. It also scared me to death!
Last fall my Ladies' Bible study - what's up my sisters in JC - did a book called "Becoming a Woman of Simplicity" by Cynthia Heald. It challenged me to not settle for doing good things, but focus on doing God things - the best that He has for me as a part of His Will (not mine). I began to realize as good as the part time jobs were and as much as I loved doing them, I was needed at home more than I was able to give. And right about that time we began to look at this job at UA for Tyrone.
Sometimes I need an extreme "shove" from God to get me going in the right direction and I see this move as just that. It has been very challenging to JUST be a wife and stay at home mom. It has also been very rewarding and I won't trade it for anything right now. I have been able to take the kids to the park and the library, keep the laundry done, make the beds, make lunch for Tyrone everyday, and the list could go on and on.
This summer Tyrone and I watched a video series by Andy Stanley called "Guardrails". He had his wife help on the discussion about marriage/family and she said something very profound that I use as my foundation for this new job I have. It comes from Nehemiah 6:3-4 - "so I sent messengers to them with this reply: “I am carrying on a great project and cannot go down. Why should the work stop while I leave it and go down to you?” 4 Four times they sent me the same message, and each time I gave them the same answer." Nehemiah was given permission by King Artaxerxes to go to Jerusalem to rebuild the wall around the city. He met great opposition from his own people and his enemies.
I meet great opposition every day about only being a wife and mom. Some of it comes from "good" things. Some is in my own mind. Some is from the enemy himself. I meet all of it with the response from Nehemiah. The job I am doing as a wife and mom is a great project and this is where God wants me to be right now. I know some day he will provide an opportunity for other things outside our home, but for now I must follow His lead and stay on my "wall".
This is easy to say and difficult to do so pray for me when God brings me to mind.
Last fall my Ladies' Bible study - what's up my sisters in JC - did a book called "Becoming a Woman of Simplicity" by Cynthia Heald. It challenged me to not settle for doing good things, but focus on doing God things - the best that He has for me as a part of His Will (not mine). I began to realize as good as the part time jobs were and as much as I loved doing them, I was needed at home more than I was able to give. And right about that time we began to look at this job at UA for Tyrone.
Sometimes I need an extreme "shove" from God to get me going in the right direction and I see this move as just that. It has been very challenging to JUST be a wife and stay at home mom. It has also been very rewarding and I won't trade it for anything right now. I have been able to take the kids to the park and the library, keep the laundry done, make the beds, make lunch for Tyrone everyday, and the list could go on and on.
This summer Tyrone and I watched a video series by Andy Stanley called "Guardrails". He had his wife help on the discussion about marriage/family and she said something very profound that I use as my foundation for this new job I have. It comes from Nehemiah 6:3-4 - "so I sent messengers to them with this reply: “I am carrying on a great project and cannot go down. Why should the work stop while I leave it and go down to you?” 4 Four times they sent me the same message, and each time I gave them the same answer." Nehemiah was given permission by King Artaxerxes to go to Jerusalem to rebuild the wall around the city. He met great opposition from his own people and his enemies.
I meet great opposition every day about only being a wife and mom. Some of it comes from "good" things. Some is in my own mind. Some is from the enemy himself. I meet all of it with the response from Nehemiah. The job I am doing as a wife and mom is a great project and this is where God wants me to be right now. I know some day he will provide an opportunity for other things outside our home, but for now I must follow His lead and stay on my "wall".
This is easy to say and difficult to do so pray for me when God brings me to mind.
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